Broken From the Inside Out.
I just got back from Italy with my family and I’ve never been more stressed out in my life. The trip was absolutely awful and I just can’t understand why things happened the way they did. I was claimed as the bad guy and the trouble maker only because I was more introverted than I normally am.
The entire family is ganging up on me telling me I better apologize and that it was my fault and I should be ashamed. And that years down the road when I look back on it, I will be horrified of my behavior. What a real shit way to approach me. Getting messages that are so long they could be novel’s is freakin ridiculous. I came back to Eugene hoping everything would mull over, and my stress was minimized. But now! I have 3 different people on my ass telling me what an awful person I am and that whenever I talked they just kind of brushed it aside. I understand that some parts of it were totally my fault and that I came off as a bit rude and insensitive. I totally get that, we all have those times. However, when I feel like there is tension in the air, I stay quiet because I don’t want to get involved. BUT! By doing that, I guess I created more drama somehow.
I was told that I was not responding to my step-mom a lot of the times, and a lot of those times I had no idea! So it wasn’t on purpose, as opposed to what everyone thought. It feels great to know that my family hates me right now and no one wants to talk to me. It’s a great feeling…………..
Sigh. I need some love.
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